SavvyAdeptSensation

I did not fail to feel the abeyant love you were capable of giving me I did not fail to be your superstar I did not fail to be confident in your obligation I did not fail in my expression of veneration I did not fail to nourish you; did you not feel like the only man on earth... I failed when I knew you could not conform to my mental and emotional coequally I failed in the reservation of you loving me with full reciprocity I failed to let go the moment you revealed to me that you were not ready I failed the truth and made excuses for your lack and ability I failed to protect my mind, my heart, my soul... I realize my worth I realize my love I realize my strength I realize my uniqueness I realize I must never, ever give myself away again to Potential. Love.

You gossiping whore and obtrusive bitch, I should have never trusted you with my shit! You turned what was sweet into a lie, look...scornful, laughing passers-by! I know this rhyme is irascible and tight-fisted, but I am mad as hell and downright pissed! Now I need to release before I squall, and shoot and stab and kill you all! Your diabolical, twisted stratagem is mucked, my armor is well-stocked and you bout to get fucked! At ease on this bull I am grown as shit, I make more money and have more education than you'll ever get! Yes this is petty but oh so real, step to my face and I'll show you the deal! You are nothing more than babbling fools, I'm prepared to knock the shit out of all you ghouls!

was it deliberate when you looked at me perhaps it was a fluke conceivably forcing it to be inadvertent love ergo naturally can you handle what I can give meandering maunder it is not maybe too superabundant for how you live don't conscientiously convolute my every thought fabricate your affectivity diaphanous insecurities your heart's appetite is famished but true love is liberty conduct this rockfest baby uphold harmonic masculinity balance my heart in a sacred tune not perfection but you complete me

Where does it really all begin? Perhaps in Genesis chapter 1 verse 3 when my Creator God said "Let there be..." Maybe, in actuality for you and me, gestational week 18... two ears unfolded from inside our heads and we first heard the uninterpreted words from our Mommy??? Expression, definition, understanding, revelation, spirituality, inspiration...words, words, words! They come, they grow, they fade, they change lives...change lives, whole lives, completely. Just one word can make my day or take my spirit far, far away. Just one not two or three, but just one...Think about it...love, hate, stop, stay, fuck, no, NO...NO...NO! Whew, that's a hard one. Think about it...you, me, us, they, he, she, it, yes, YES...YES...YES! Whew that's a deep one. Words compel, shake...they motivate...they groove (snap, snap, snap) they move. They deliver, destroy, heal, conquer, etcetera, etcetera...You know and I know we need them like the earth needs the rain to wash over the pain...Pi...

open, alert, engaged, focused, assiduous, preoccupied, circles, thinking...distraction! capture, overtake, overwhelm, uncontrolled, grapple, succumb....distress!  smiling, lively songs, brisk walks, shoulders thumping...delight! enticed, unrelenting, captivate, fantasy, poetic...dream!

Okay, so my beautiful little sister shared her blog with me, and of course, I desired one of my own. I always have so much to say so...blogging is absolutely apropos. I hope to willing and deliberately allow readers to explore the ambit of my analysis and logic. I enjoy word play so this should be an easy avocation...yeah right! Either way, let's commence!